[He doesn't want M to feel guilty for not knowing about any of this. At the end of the day, the problem resides in Andrew, and he needs to work on himself in order to fix it. He's the only one who can change it.]
Yeah, I knew. But I thought it was my fault. And even when I got old enough to know better I never did anything about it. I never dealt with my past head-on and acknowledged all the toxic bullshit they fed me. The voices in my head that tell me I can never be good enough.
[He stares down at M's hand in his and can't help but feel like he's standing on a ledge, about to tumble over. Because there's more that he hasn't told M. Something that bothers him. That keeps him up some nights, too afraid to close his eyes and be there again. The other reason he needs to talk to someone so desperately.
But first he needs to talk to M.]
Um...there is something else I need to tell you. [He swallows.] During the last year I've been here...I've died.
tmw you reveal something huge and someone has already spoiled it
Yeah, I knew. But I thought it was my fault. And even when I got old enough to know better I never did anything about it. I never dealt with my past head-on and acknowledged all the toxic bullshit they fed me. The voices in my head that tell me I can never be good enough.
[He stares down at M's hand in his and can't help but feel like he's standing on a ledge, about to tumble over. Because there's more that he hasn't told M. Something that bothers him. That keeps him up some nights, too afraid to close his eyes and be there again. The other reason he needs to talk to someone so desperately.
But first he needs to talk to M.]
Um...there is something else I need to tell you. [He swallows.] During the last year I've been here...I've died.