It's pretty much the only time I've ever lied to anyone. He told me otherwise, but some days I still wonder if he loved the idea of Lucas more than he loved the actual me.
And even if he did love me for me... It's very hard to come back from finding out a good portion of what you thought you loved was a lie.
[The thought is a lie, but that doesn't stop it from gnawing away at him.]
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Date: 2019-05-09 06:56 pm (UTC)It's pretty much the only time I've ever lied to anyone. He told me otherwise, but some days I still wonder if he loved the idea of Lucas more than he loved the actual me.
And even if he did love me for me... It's very hard to come back from finding out a good portion of what you thought you loved was a lie.
[The thought is a lie, but that doesn't stop it from gnawing away at him.]